Fasting and praying
To day for me is ask God for the strength to fast and pray as I prepare for lent season.
For Lunar New Year celebration, the 1st day is to visit my siblings and my husband's siblings and his relatives. For the 20 years after my marriage, my husband has not visited my siblings during this festival, which I do not know the reason why he do not seem to be comfortable with them. I will always bring my only daughter there for visiting because I do not like to force my husband to go with us. After all these years, sometimes, i wonder why has it be so that he do not like to visit them at all. I have learned to accept it for all these years. On the 2nd day of the Lunar New Year holiday was spend with my husband and he drove around the island and realised that he does not have much friends to visit and my daughter has her own programe.
Sometimes, I ask God, when will my life end so that I can be in Heaven with him. I have done my job as a mother to my daughter who is 20 years old this year and will not need my attention as much as when she was young. Now she seem to want to have her own lifestyle and there is left only my husband and myself. Maybe, both of us can spend more time together and I find it hard to adjusting spending so much time together. God, you have blessed us quite well in our this section of our life, and my husband's job is demanding but he still can have his own time. As for myself, I am helping him in this office and also have time to be prayful to God, which I am really very grateful to God for leting me turn to him in my forties, which is semi retirement for me.
I want to write down as much thoughts as I could in this blog page so that I also express my feeling which is sometimes bottled up in me because my husband is quite selfish and will not want to hear others problems because he seem to have a lot of problems within himself. Since we are married for 20 over years and being a Catholic and married in Church, I will alway remember the vow that I have taken till death we part.
For Lunar New Year celebration, the 1st day is to visit my siblings and my husband's siblings and his relatives. For the 20 years after my marriage, my husband has not visited my siblings during this festival, which I do not know the reason why he do not seem to be comfortable with them. I will always bring my only daughter there for visiting because I do not like to force my husband to go with us. After all these years, sometimes, i wonder why has it be so that he do not like to visit them at all. I have learned to accept it for all these years. On the 2nd day of the Lunar New Year holiday was spend with my husband and he drove around the island and realised that he does not have much friends to visit and my daughter has her own programe.
Sometimes, I ask God, when will my life end so that I can be in Heaven with him. I have done my job as a mother to my daughter who is 20 years old this year and will not need my attention as much as when she was young. Now she seem to want to have her own lifestyle and there is left only my husband and myself. Maybe, both of us can spend more time together and I find it hard to adjusting spending so much time together. God, you have blessed us quite well in our this section of our life, and my husband's job is demanding but he still can have his own time. As for myself, I am helping him in this office and also have time to be prayful to God, which I am really very grateful to God for leting me turn to him in my forties, which is semi retirement for me.
I want to write down as much thoughts as I could in this blog page so that I also express my feeling which is sometimes bottled up in me because my husband is quite selfish and will not want to hear others problems because he seem to have a lot of problems within himself. Since we are married for 20 over years and being a Catholic and married in Church, I will alway remember the vow that I have taken till death we part.
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