Never too old to learn

Another day passed, I am here to write down all those thoughts which I cannot express in front of my family or friends. When I was young I use to say things which might have hurt others which I did not know and no one guide me, but now I have say less and listen more because God gave human 2 ears and 1 mouth for that exact reason. From now on I will learn to do exactly that for the New Year that is a few days away.

I guess sometime in life we must also learn not to take things so seriously and be happy and not get angry easily if one want to live longer.

Praise the Lord.
Amen

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This whole week, I tried not to be at home because my daughter is on term vacation. I think this is a good thing that we both dont meet so that there is no fire between us. I think I am a non perfect person, therefore, I would keep trying to be a perfect mother/wife one day. My daughter think that I am shi tze (14) and not tze shi (40), I do not act smart to show off. I like to think things in a simple manner and not think to deeply into things. All my life, I have God there to guide me and not turn into a bad guy. I would like to thank God for all that happened in my life. As I am approaching 50 and I am one foot into the grave and therefore prefer to lead a simple life towards retirement. Now I do not have much to worry because my husband is providing a good life for the family and my daughter has grown up and do not think mom/dad are important in her life instead her boyfriend is more important.

Sometimes, I am free of worries but that is not good it will make your brains rusty. So, God please help me to be a more useful person in my daily life.

Now, I have invited my daughter to view my blog, hope to receive some comments from her and anyone out there is free to give their comments.

Praise the Lord and trust in him.

Amen

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I have invited my daughter to view my blog, wonder what her reaction will be. I have not spoken to her since yesterday. I am not able to even give a title to my today's blog because my mind is like a whilpool of thoughts, so I will only type what comes to my little mind. Again while speaking to my husband, he always put me down when I made a suggestion to anything. Why, why, do these ppl like to think say like "I only ask for such and such a information and you need not say further" I think this kind of remark is very unkind, at least that is how I felt. I make me very inferior and sometimes fear that I say the wrong thing in other words lose confident which I have been losing the past 20 over years since, I married my husband. I use to be very chatty. I am a non perfect person who try to be perfect, which I think is my greatest flaw. My daughter say that I do not admit my mistakes which I think is not true of me. I use to learn from this mistakes but some how never able to learn. My daughter will think that it is useless to read even my blog because these are all trash to her. She cannot even be bother to listen to what I have to say sometimes, I alway feel that she has not respect whatsoever for me and my husband which is a very sad story. She sometimes treat my husband and me as transparent or invinable.

I really hope one day our relationship will improve with God's help and guidance.

Praise be to God.

Amen

not give up

Dear God

My daughter whose actions always hurt and whenever, I comment she get very worked out and started like she is possessed by the evil spirit. This saddens me a lot and ask dear God to help her overcome this possession.

Am I doing the right thing by avoiding her at all time so that she can calm down and realize her mistakes. I always think that it is a mistake that she got a dog and leave it at her boyfriend’s house and I think it is a medium size dog is not suitable to be reared in a flat. I sometimes pity her boyfriend’s mom who has to shoulder the responsibility of looking after the dog for them when they are not around. God please help them in all ways to overcome this difficulty. I always ask about the situation at their home but he keep saying everything is ok. I on the other hand, I will never accept the dog in my house, because I strongly believe that I am not able to look after and love it. Therefore, I admit that I will be a failure to do so.

I know that I have hurt her a lot by saying that I might have brought the wrong baby back home from the hospital but I really think that she is different from me in all directions. We must learn to do things within your capability and not do things that we are not capable of doing. She always think she is clever and knows all things around her. She has yet to see the world around her.

Lastly, God, I ask for your mercy that Jesus Christ to guide and be with her throughout her entire life because only you and your Jesus Christ is able to do because with God nothing is impossible oh our my dear God and your Son Our Lord Jesus Christ.

Praise and trust in God and your Son Jesus Christ
Amen